Tension

hyep sume... pekabo sume??? actually, my mood is still bad... aq rse daa lme daa mood aq gini... stil x ok2 ag... even daa dpt luah sume kt mmbe aq... even daa brbalang-balang airmata yg mngalir... but i still feel so bad...

mcm2 bnda yg trjdi... n almostnye wt aq trtekan... n aq as a normal human, mstilah ad klemahan... so aq rse xmmpu ag daa aq nk tggung sume neyh... it is so complicated...

daa mcm2 cre aq wat nk hlg an tnsion neyh... da hbs airmata aq kua an... daa bnyk pntg aq lggr... pntg??? pntg tok aq jea laa... pntg pe, aq daa xmnom coke lme daa... tpi dsbb an tnsion neyh, aq mnom gak...

ap ag??? kua mryp... daa jgak... bbnyk tmpt aq lpak... n tmn laa tmpt yg aq sllu lpak... bkn pe, tmn neyh tmpt yg xbpe rmai sgt org... kalo ad pown, org nk brsenam jea... s2 ag tmpt yg aq sllu g... ats bkit... sbnrnye, uma aq sndri pown ats bkit... npe xlpak kt uma jea... no way!! ble aq rse stress, aq lbih prefer dok sorg2... mgkin bhye, tpi neyh laa cre aq...

bgi aq tmpt2 neyh leh wt aq tng... even xspnohnye... tpi aq mncube... aq plg ske lpk ats bkit tue... sbb angin die best... sjok... tng... sunyi... dpt tgok s2 KL dri ats... xpyh nek heli... hehe...

s2 ag cre aq nk lpas tnsion... n aq rse rmai kowt org gne cre neyh... haa... cre... laa bkn ssah pown... cte jea laa kt mmbe korg... ad org kte neyh cre trbek laa nk rlease ckit tnsion korg... tpi sume neyh depends on korg gak... xsume org ske kgsi mslh dorg...

tpi bgi aq, sume aq gne... aq mnom coke... aq taw neyh xbek tok kshtn... tpi nth laa... xtaw nk ckp cne... aq lpk kt tmpt yg sunyi... aq ske tmpt tue bb, kalo aq nangis ke pe ke, no one xdgr... so xd laa aq mlu nk mlalak... hurmmm...

actually, pe sbnrnye mslh aq neyh... aq neyh sllu jea ad mslh... tiap kli, ad jea... msti rmai yg daa muak nk dgr an...

actually aq sndri pown xtaw pe mslh aq neyh... sumenye jdi kbur n xjelas... aq rse mcm aq xckop bebas n xckop mtg... aq xtaw npe... aq rse mcm dri aq neyh trkurung... trkurung dri segi pe??? nth laa... i'm not sure for it...

kdg2 aq rse mcm aq sorg jea kt sini... mmg laa aq ske sorg2... but it just ble aq prlu... actually, aq tkot ble keseorangan... n aq rse aq xmmpu hdop sorg2...

salahkah ble korg luah an pe yg korg rse???
salah ke ble korg wat pe yg korg suke???
salahkah ble korg prthan an pe yg korg nk???

bgi aq, sume neyh... ad bek bruknye... walau cne skli pown, stiap pe yg kte wat, msti ad bek n broknye... btol an??? aq rse xslh wt sume tue... stiap human ad hak msing... so dorg brhak nk suare kn pe yg dorg nk... tpi ikot pde tmpt n cre dorg luah an laa...

aq taw no one is perfect in this world... but i still know that all of them had try their best to be the best... stiap org ad mnt n khndak sndri... so kte xspatotnye hlg pe yg dorg nk, sbliknye kte ptot skong n bre support...

sbnrnye rmaje neyh kuat mmberontak... so, jgn laa trllu mghlg glgn2 neyh wat pe yg dorg ske... ckop r skdr nsht... xmstahil kalo dorg neyh sggop xmkn n mnom just nk tnjuk rse mmberontak dorg tue...

aq plg xske ble aq ad mslh... aq rse stress sgt... n mle laa aq down... tnsion... rse mcm srabot jea kpale otk aq neyh... kdg2 aq pkir mati better than hdop... aq taw brdosa an ckp gitu... arrgghhh...

lari jea laa cre aq nk elk sume mslh... kdg2 org xphm npe aq wt gitu... sbb korg xd kt tmpt aq... korg xrse pe yg aq rse... korg xllui pe yg aq llui... korg xnmpk pe yg jdi...

actually, aq pown xtaw pe yg aq mrepek dlm entry kli neyh... aq just say what is in my mind...

4 comments:

CintaZulaikha said...

uishhh, masalah dalaman nih..bawa banyak istighfar dik..

aena said...

insyaallah kak, nothing will happen... i still can control myself..
thanks for taking care bout me kak :)

sue ky :) said...

bila terlalu banyak sangat fikir, cm neyh la. cbe buang fkiran koto2 tu. janagn telalu pkir ape yg org cakap kat ko. just let it be. tak salah wt pe nak fikir kan? tu kan yg kau cakap kat aku..

aena said...

sue ky :)
thanx sbb jdi pndgr aq...
thanx for being with me when i need it :')